Mission for the year! : SAVE for LONDON!

so many things NEEDED (not want)..but no money!AHHHH!!!!

argh

stressed.

1.prelims
2.econs (i know nuts)
3.threading (u wait until u do then u say nt pain)
4.relationships ( i FAIL at them badly)
5.art (cant draw n i hate work)
6.my nonsense ( i talk too much)
7.tuition
8.work
9.people
10.myself ( i hate myself)

pimples,headache,slplessness,tension,etc. DONT talk to me unless u want to hear me talk crap or shout at u. BEWARE, im dangerous. (then again i think im toooo nice sometimes which is 1 of the cause of the people issue.darn!)

My best friend?

'True Happiness comes from precious moments spent together with those you love...' -MooN

tt's what i think.
& so while sitting in lecture today,remembering all those moments , things said and laughing to myself,i felt SOoOoOoOoOoOoO happy.

Maybe its not so much of the financial stability but more of times people are there for you tt matters more. At least to me. I think im easily content in tt way. Though, somehow things dont happen tt way mostly.

Maybe she doesnt understand me or what or why i always find an excuse to meet my friends..BUT it just makes me happy. I can juz sit there n stare at loved ones & its enough. Their being around & close to me is good enough for me.

Though, still is tt smth missing...tt 1 person whom i can talk n talk n talk to ANYtime about ANYthing & who TRUSTS me truely. I need a close friend. I have many friends but i still havent found a best friend i guess...As time passes, a best friend is what i need i guess...

Any takers?Its really demanding i should say. cause u'll have to bear with all the calls, complaints, disturbing, talking nonsense, etc...im quite irritating i should say...haha...
BUT you benefit too...u get to see/talk to me...haha!i wont complain & i'll also be ard 24/7.really.24/7.& u can bully me.i wont complain.really.'cos for the trouble u take,i'll take more than tt to see you happy.i cant bear to see my loved ones sad.I'm loyal but i expect the same.Vice Versa as they say.how???haha..

SO...ANY takers??

i'm sorry...

Why is it tt my voice always breaks up when i talk to the people from India?
:'o(
I miss them.
but i cant talk to them.i just cant.
it makes me sad.
going to be a yr since i went there but still...
haiz...
forgive me..i'm sorry...

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Actually while watching the play, i was thinking...wouldnt it be nice if i had someone i could speak hindi with?
I think i might have wanted a friend that i could speak my mind to no matter the time,place or what not.
though was not able to get it...
I doubt i've ever had a friend to really talk to in hindi/punjabi...
The fact is tt i seem to not make friends with any indians..i cant seem to be friends with them...something always happens...
even my own brother refuses to speak a single word of hindi to me.the only person i speak to is mummy..

it was nice to see everyone so happy yest while watching the play.i know they tried their best to translate it to me expecially the jokes,though it wasnt possible at all times..thanks guys...i didnt feel left out..yest was fun =op

10 more mins to the new year...
well,this year passed by very quickly..maybe cause i was trying to run away from myself n things so i juz kept doing stupid things or pushing myself to work..
thank you all for being there..its been another great year to know everyone..i hope for many more to come...
but i guess everyone is so busy sometimes,a simple 'hi' is also missing...juz to let u know, i miss all of u..juz tt i dont want to get into anymore issues so i rather nt talk to anyone..
i juz have a hope of finding a good friend [like Edward ( if i may say..haha!)],who's there always...

5 more mins..
as my mum said.. Im a bitch..not tt she meant it in a bad way but i think im fine with being called tt..cause i think i have the traits..for one,im extremely loyal..so dont think u can get away frm being bugged so easily...& which is also why i have to think a million times if i dont want to shatter my heart anymore..i dont think i can take it anymore..

ok.shall go now.Happy New Year 2009 to all.Take care & God Bless. May the following year be a fruitful one.ciaoz.

Im tired.

And she asks me why am I acting this way…
So I reply, ‘Just leave me alone…’
Little does she know what I mean to say…

I’m just tired and hope-less now on…
I have little to say, little to do…
Just that my heart has broken into two…